it is the one single tear diary again, but with the final chapter
unfortunatly, it is really the final chapter
you guys just missed alot of days now this is the day 281 in my dairy
yes almost one year since i started to write this dairy, and not to lie, i can’t remember 50% of what is written in there…
i think i am starting to lose it, everything is falling apart, my plans, my future,,,, my limerent
One Single Tear :: The Final Chapter ::
~ back to where it got started ~
part1 ~ lost of memories ~
some obstacles lead my mind to be shutted down, i can’t remember everything before that insedant
not even BoA, what is going on to me ?!!! am i losing everything, am i…….. i know this feeling, 8 years ago
the same way, the same feeling, the lost of memories, i am at the start point again… but i am not gonna break down, not now, but i guess, i can’t do this anymore, what can i do, this hurts……..
part2 ~ to lose them, or to live in prison ~
divided to be 2 solutions, to travel away or to stay and face the rest of this life, couldn’t find the answer to this at the start but finally it is out, i will live prisoner of this disease
part3 ~ no more medications ~
officially since last Wednesday i am no more under medication shedual, under my request i have stopped all kind of medications i am taking to release the pain and fasten the rate of getting down…
yeah i understand that almost everyone may read this would say ” are you crazy or something ” but yeah no one will live the life i live in right now, i want to be out, and the only way to get out from this, is the solution i had in my mind
more to come about this………….
Filed under: Diary, One Single Tear, Part of the Diary
Maybe you just lost your important feelling ?
Unless you guess what it is, you will lose half of yourself.
Calm down and think what are your purpose in this world.
Find the answer of your life.
I wish you luck…
all we do in this world is to find other part of ourselves and a purpose
please be well, i pray for you
i dont know what happend to you, but good day to you…
Hi, i haven’t been here long enough to get to know you or try to say anything that may sound judgmental to you because I don’t have all the facts. By reading this final chapter you just wrote, I felt a sense of connection, because I am going through something very very similar emotionally. I have lived this life 22 years now, but from age 12 to age 21, I’ve always had something very very precious to me. But, all of a sudden, I lost “it”. My heart has a hole, it has a very big burning scar even as i am typing right now, and the hurting that continues within me is driving me crazy. I don’t know what I should do because I can stay with my current situation and have all the memories and pain eat me up or make me stronger, OR, I can just leave and find somewhere I can start anew. Somehow, I can’t describe it, but I think God is helping me everyday with just small decisions and small choices that I make. I don’t know what your problems are, but when I read them just now, I can’t feel anything else but a sense of the very similar emotions i was first experiencing this past February when I lost that something very precious and dear to me.
“Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you” 1 Peter 5:7, I don’t know what else to say that can comfort you or make you feel better, but this is the verse that get me going everyday with everything–good and bad– that I have, because in the end, I think from my experiences, all the good and bad are all going to make you into a person that you will be proud of, no matter what.
I will be praying for you and hopefully everything turns out to be the best for you.
God Bless.
^
thank you all, for your support
and sorry for the late reply
MANY THINGS happened
@ Sixiaohu
pretty much you are describing what i am through, the pain, the waiting, the confusion…
another events happened, and new entry will be written now…
it will explain more !!!