sometimes … yeah !!
it’s been a while thinking about this … and by looking at the people who got changed, including me
i see that they have changed by hurting others … sometimes they know it … sometimes they don’t
like of recently, when you are used to see someone alot … and suddenly everything changes, both of you will have the idea that the other side isn’t even care … which i think about alot lately…
I’ve been holding MS for 9 years now, this weird disease is famous with it’s ” up & down ” nature, one day with my full health, the other day with a wheel chair or a cane… I need to change and be careful of my dcisions, but people, even the ones who knows that i care, never give a damn… or do they ?!!! it seems i can’t get a proof of that and that what hurts me the most … because of that stupid disease and what some people have done to me through out the years, i became suspecious, i expect my friends to give reasons for their disappearnce, other wise i get worried, and then the god damn disease get over me … one thing is i am tired to start the over whilming ” why ? ” that will make me sound dramatic, the second is why i shall care that much ?!! shall i wait for ages till he/she miss me and ask about me for once ?!!! HE/SHE AND I WERE ASKING ABOUT EACH OTHER EVERY OTHER DAY … but now ?!!! … i dunno
i guess i will start to throw out things i am not supposed to … but to get this out of my mind … if you know me … and you haven’t contacted me in over a week, you are hurting me, really !!!
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